Niki is having depression. Which I think I know why... she said she felt like killing herself n stuff like that. Well when I was having my depression a couple of years ago all I felt is anger, and anger and anger. But I've never thought of killing myself, hmpf, donno why, but I did think of self-torturing. And I love the feeling of pain, I used to love it, I still love it now, and I will still love the sensation of pain.
Maybe I shold suggest Nik to get a little bit of pain......